Trust Is A Fluid Concept

Trust. It isn't exactly a solid concrete thing is it? You can trust someone and then they abuse what small amount of trust they had gathered with you and then *BAMM* it's gone, in the blink of an eye. You're hurt, they're 'sorry' and everything becomes insanely awkward. Happens everytime, like clockwork. Just sayin'. When you abuse someones trust it does not just cost You something it costs Them something too. You hurt them, and abust the power they gave you, even though they warned you, and told you they would make your life miserable is your hurt them, you still do it! You break their heart or abuse any amount of belief that good people still exsist in the world and then you leave. Plain and simple, your job is done, they are broken and you don't have one mark, nick, or scratch. You get off home free. But them? They are broken, bruised, scarred, and afraid to trust again. You cost them the trust they had for anyone.
 (I am also speaking for myself when you say this) you need to give people a chance, a chance to prove you wrong to show that good true Trustworthy people still exsist, give people the power and love evey minute of it while it lasts. Yes, some don't last and you become broken again, but you never know one day out of the blue someone who IS worth all of your trust and love and belief in good people comes along and you are shocked, but you love it. Yet, who shows up again? Mr. Trust Issues. (Cheesy i know lol) but you just begin to find someone you know in your heart that you can trust and love the exilerating feeling of being able to let go and speak your mind and open your heart, almost like you can't help your self , but always in the back your of you mind know, even though you don't want to, you are waiting for them to slip up. Waiting for them to make one mistake, so this time you can be the one to split and break their heart only so you don't have to feel the pain of being broken, bruise, and taken advantage of one more time. Only at the same time you Don't want that, you don't want them to show you that you were right about yet one more person, one more time, that they were all the same as the rest and that no one is ever going to be different and that this person who means so much it's crazy is just like them. Thinking of that actually happening breaks your heart and you cannot handle it, the thought of either happening, you leaveing or them being the same as everyone else. People around you are saying that you are afraid to be happy and yes thank you for that news flash you already knew that, hence why you don't want yourself to open up and you are almost hoping that they are the same because it would be easier then them being different, you aren't used to different and you aren't used to not having control of the emotions you are having and you are afraid that yes, right now you may be in their world and you want to be, you may even be the center of their world and you love it yet you don't want to be the center of the world, only for them to later on find out that you aren't worth their time and you aren't good enough and that you don't belong to their world.
 Trust is a fluid concept, painful, hurtful, breaking, yet at the same time exhilerating, amazing, loving, and spectacular. Let down your walls and let yourself trust and love. Trust is a burden you cannot bare alone, let someone help you, give them your trust let them help you along.

Curve Balls

Sometimes, life throws curve balls. You have to learn to either take the hit or dive for it. My advice would be to dive for it, makes life more interesting and you never know what could happen. Let the past, stay in the past, don't forget it completely, but don't bring it up to try and stop the same thing from happening continually. Remember your happenings or mistakes and learn from them, try to reap the lessons they might bring you. You may think you have it rough but remember (even though this most likely will not make you feel better at the time, I know it doesn't help me) someone is always worse off than you, loosing someone they love, making life altering decsions, some good or possibly some bad.
  Take te plunge, trust people, fall in love, live in love, be with the one who makes your smile glow and your heart soar. Trust people, break down the walls that you may have and trust them, they love you and want the best for you. Yes, yes, I am fully aware that once you share your emotions with people and trust them, that gives them the power to take advantage of and hurt you, but there are those some people the lighthouses in a world of fog, helping you get through the problems, and get through all the rough patches with their guiding light and love. Let someone love you, let them think of you as their world, don't hide away in the shelter of the fog and clouds, shine like the sun! Be someone's light house, be that guiding light that helps them through all their pain and agony they are going through, you both will be the better for it.

~ A Katherine.