Stabbing, Lies, and Mistrust

Trust...what is trust? Trust (when used with as an object) : to have trust or confidence in; rely or depend on. Why is it that the definition is so easy to read but it is so easy to obtain?
  Why is it so difficult for us to trust people, but when we finally begin to come around and trust them, even with them knowing that it took forever for them to gain your trust it is so easy for them to break it and destroy you? Why is it so simple for them to stab you in the back and mangle the trust you gave them.
  Guys, this is for you: On behalf of the female persuasion We are sorry! Not to all guys but to the good guys, who care about people who actually have a heart and care that others are hurting and have respect for others (and themselves for that matter). Girls, all alot of us (Yes including myself in that) ever do is talk about the awful, horrible, pig-ish guys but we take advantage of the guys who are sweet and respectful. The ones we keep as out friends because they are protective, sweet, kind, and caring but we dont think about what they feel most of the time. Girls have no right to talk about who this guy hurt her last week and this guy hurt her last month when you could just stop the hurting if you perhaps if you didn't hurt the one guy who actually cared about you and loved and cared about you for you and not for you looks or how you dress but loves your smile and your personality and your heart but you crushed him because you thought he just wanted something and he was pretending to be good and just trying to get something from you, when in reality you just threw away the best thing in your world because he was perfect.
  So girls, next time you think about why a guy has hurt you and why he was such  jerk, and you feel like he used you, just remember, he is keeping love at a distance, he pushed you away and hurt you before you have the chance to hurt him. Thats what people do when they have a problem with trust and they are doing simply what they have been taught.

~ A Katherine

friends && Friends

Despite what some people think there is a difference between friends. Not that whole 'a friend would do.... but a best friend....' no not that, there is simply the difference between types of friends. Yes, the best friends thing, brings up the point that you are closer to certain people than others, thus declaring them 'the best' but when it comes to friends there is a way to determine some things, and no I am not a professional this is simply from my point of view, and please if you don't agree do comment i'd live to hear your opnions. Anyhow, friends can be the people you are around daily, you hang out with during school or outside of school, you laugh with and talk to about all of the gossipy (is that a word?) thoughts...they will be there for you -sometimes- and when you need a smile you can call them up and get the smile you need; but a Friend, (and yes, the capital letter does make a difference) a Friend who you don't see as often as you would like, but someone you think about often, someone who you have made stellar memories together, and it doesn't matter how long you have been apart, you can pick up right where you left off. friends can be there when you need a little help or a smile but Friends are there through think and thin, and are more then just a grin or a chuckle they are a massive smile, like the ear to ear kinda deal. Thank you Friends for being for you but don't forget the friends you have around you too :-)

~ A Katherine

Torn Between Two Feelings...

Do you ever have those moments where you know that you really do not want to care but you for some very stupid reason can't help it? You had something at some point a friendship, a relationship and things didn't go as planned and you cannot stand the thought of the person but when you see them, you see how much pain they are in and you want to be happy that they are in pain, because maybe, just maybe they will know a tiny bit of the pain you felt when things didn't work out but as you look at them and see how miserable they are and that things aren't working out for them you do feel something but it isn't the happiness you thought you would have? It's pain, and a small hint of agony for the person because as much as you dislike them you can't help but remember the small attatchment you had for them and you reach out to help them...How do you feel when you see them next? Do you still feel the pain and hate toward that person or do you feel sorrow and some small amount of pity for them? You decide next time, you see them. Can you truely forgive someone, to get past your burning dislike for them or are you still dwelling on the past?

Love Actually...

Soooo someone i know asked a question a few days ago, that question was 'in your opinion what is love?' well what is your opinion? In my opinion love is a prescious treasure, something to be cherished. When you find someone who loves you or someone you love you need to cherish them and keep them, tell them every chance you have that you love them and that they mean the world to you. Love is, someone accepting you for all of your flaws, and not mentioning them at their every chance, finding that one person that makes your world feel whole, and makes you feel happier than you think you have ever been. Love is, not about how often you are with this person or how much you spend apart, it is everytime you do something it's the very moment that person comes to mind. Love is, accepting them or them accepting you for you, your flaws, past problems, furture problems, small emotional break downs. Fighting and making up and being stronger then you were before the fight. Love is, like the sun and like oxygen, when it's in your life you are flourishing and glowing in its warmth, but the moment you imagine yourself without them you cant breathe, you literally start to ache at the thought of losing them. The clouds are over you and it is like winter, and you are wilting a never ending winter, but when you come back to reality and discover they are still there and your sun is shining down more then before you can breathe easy and rejoyce in the glorious, warm, amazing, precious peice of treasure that is in your heart. And every chance you get you thank the heavens that you are in their heart and you pray you always will be. But! i'm no professional ;-)

~ A Katherine

Sunny Days

This ones gonna be kinda short: So first off, fun fact: It's snowing and it looks soo angelic, beautiful, and serene. Have you ever been around someone, that they just radiate energy? If so, have you ever just talked to someone whether it be over the phone, online, or texting that you can feel that energy. Lile the warmth of a thousand summer suns is shinning down on you? It's an amazing feel is you know what I am talking about, isn't it? Finding that one person who, even on the dreariest (spelling?) of days makes you feel like you are in the warmth of summer, and that warmth is shinning on you only? It's a glorious feeling.

Where Matters of the Heart and Mind Intertwine

Who wins out in the end? Your heart of your mind? Often the two are mixed together and it makes matter very difficult. Like for example why is it that girls (being the oh so confusing creatures we are) always fall for the jerks, morons, and awful guys and then wonder why i heart is aching later on? Why is it that we fall for the guys who are always sweet talking and trying to get something from us we run right toward them? We run right toward them and fall head over heals into their arms, and their hopes they will get something out of 'being there for you' and freak out when the word 'no' graces your lips? Yet we still fall for them everytime, and we fall for thief lies everytime they apologize both in mind and heart. Now the second part of this question, why do we run from the good guys? Why when a guy is sweet and tame and loving do we automatically assume there is something wrong with him? Someone who wants to break down the walls you have around your heart, and heal what others have done, and make you feel like you are the center of his world, why do we walk away from those? Your heart wants you to run full force to him but your mind is telling no, and for once, at the worst possible time we listen to it. There's food for thought, why do we assume flaws in those who actually want us and what's best for us, but we see no problems in the morons in our life and then we wonder why we hurt so badly after the entire affair. Think about that next time your mind screams 'no! don't do it run away immediately.' when all you want to do is give in a believe the one who makes your heart soar.