May It Be

Do you remember, as a child playing with those toys where you had to place the shaped pegs inside of the correct hole and you push so hard that it almost breaks? Then, you stop pushing, take a breath and realize that no matter how hard you push that it just isn't going to fit. Sometimes our life and the way we handle things is like being back playing with that toy. Pushing and pushing until it's close to snapping. You need to learn to step back, take a deep breath and let it go into the right hole, but in this case you need to step back and let things happen like they need to. If you don't push then things will either go back to how they were or they mold into how they should be. 

   It'll never matter how much you push you need to let things come as they may, let it happen like it needs to because when you do that things will one way or another be alright.

Be.

Sometimes there are no words for a mood you're feeling. Not because you can't put words into the situation and you can't describe your mood but simply  because you can't seem to find a way to explain why you feel the way you do. Simply because. And that is it. Because. Just is. You are feeling fabulous and you don't care why you do, it is as simple as you feel amazing and that is that.

  When you feel that way, just let it happen. Just let yourself feel that amazing and feel that stupendous without asking why, just let it be. 

Be Yourself

Yes! I know that is the worst advice someone can give you. "Be yourself." How can you be yourself when sometimes you don't even know who 'you' is? Well, when it call comes down to it, you need to breathe, relax and just let your body take control.
  Let your body do the talking for you, because when you breathe, center yourself and let your body take over, your mind often settles down, and just follows suit.
  Allowing this to happen, to let your body take the reigns, things fall into place and they go back to normal. Or at least as normal as your life possibly can be :)

Learning From Your Mistakes

There are times in your life when things come up and you much overcome them, suffer in the pain or learn from them.

 This evening i learned Do not mix your past with your present and future, things will become a mess and you will instantly regret it, you just need to pray it isn't a mistake you regret for the rest of your life. Learn from your mistake, seek forgiveness and move on, allowing it to become the past.

Keep It Coming

Everyday you are going to be faced with things that you'll never quiet understand. Why is it happening, Why couldn't this just be easier, why do things have to be so confusing? Everyday there is going to be a new challenge for you to keep yourself going. That's just how life works.
 You just have to find something to keep yourself going with, whether it be something as simple as recalling memories, looking at pictures to something as complicated as switching up your entire look. Either way you choose to go you need to find something that works for you to keep yourself going.
  Things can get erased, lost or broken and you can either take it as something that happened purely by accident or you can tell yourself this is the universes way of telling yourself that you needed a fresh start and that you need to start things over. As hard as it may be you needed to start again and you weren't going to do it yourself so the universe made an executive decision and did it for you. Take a moment, let things sink in but then tell yourself: Things will only get better from here.
 Then pick yourself up, clean yourself off, brush your hair back and say:

      "Okay universe, I've got this. Keep it coming."

Speaking Your Mind

Sometimes a confession is the easiest way to get out the truth.

Confession:
              The truth is, I'm sitting out under the stars thinking about Quasars, how beautiful it is just to see all the stars and how amazing it is that there is so much going on around us. I'm thinking about how spectacular and outstanding you are and how much i miss you. How I want to talk to you more than anything; even though i'm the one who asked for space and how I wish, every time someone is at the front door i'm praying it's you; coming to get me. Coming to get me just to tell me you want me and that you love me. I'm thinking that I know i shouldn't be writing this and it isn't going to help things move along any more than they are and that it doesn't matter if i should or shouldn't be writing this because you most likely aren't going to read it anyway. But on the off chance that you do i just wanted to let you know you are The Joker to my Harley Quinn. You always will be. I love you and I hope you're looking up at the stars and thinking. <3

Black and White

Not everything is in black and white. You need to learn to read between the lines and teach yourself to find the bullshit.

Pacing Yourself

When something has come to a pause in your life you need to learn to pace yourself. Even though there's a promise of continuation you still have the doubts in your mind that things will work out to how they used to be or better. You doubt that things will work out at all and that you'll be left with this big, gaping, painful hole that you wouldn't be able to fill. Daily you wonder if things will work, was there something else going on that isn't being said, is there someone else you need to worry about taking your place? So many questions going through your head at once, not knowing which ones to sort out. Not knowing which thoughts to follow through and which to push to the side. 
 Pace yourself. Yes, it will be difficult to do but you do need to pace yourself. You need to tell yourself "Things will work out", "Things are going to be okay." "There is no one else, they still love you." "Breathe deep and trust them. Trust that they're telling the truth and that things are going to be as they should be." It is going to be challenging to separate all of your feelings and thoughts but you need to do it. In order to survive the moment you are going through you are going to have to pace yourself.
Believe in your relationship. Breathe. Pace yourself. Distance yourself for a while. Breathe. Repeat.

Deciding

Decisions. decisions. Making decisions can be the most difficult experience of your life. You think along all the ways this could go wonderfully, completely, totally right and then directly next to that thought train is the ways it could go horrifically, unnaturally, and one hundred percent wrong. 
 When faced with those two avenues sometimes there is no easy way of which on to take sometimes there is. For the most part you need to hunker down and act like an adult. Bite the bullet and make the choice. Often times, when you follow your gut things turn out okay, if by chance you go against what you feel in your very core then you most like will end up in emotional turmoil  your feels all crazy and such. As the time comes that you are faced with one of these choices follow your instincts, they were given to us for a reason.
 When you make those decisions they do effect the people around you but don't let that stop you from making the one that is best for you. When you've made the right decision then you will know, from the inside out. Your feels will agree with the rest of your insides and all will be well, maybe not directly after the choice but as time wears on all shall be as it needs to be. Don't let those in your life influence what you need to do in order to live the most chaos free life you possibly can.
 Keep in mind, when you do make your choice it doesn't mean that you love someone any less, it just means that you love them but you are taking care of your needs first, which if they love you they will understand and they will stand by your side in the decisions that you make. 


P.s.
          If it helps you say to yourself, "Remember, I love you. I love you and I did this not only for myself but for us." 
  It might help along your path of deciding :)