When You Find Yourself Lost

Do you ever have those moments when you know you're on top of the world and you realize 'i have never been this happy!' and then you get the fear that it won't last long. You can't bring yourself to admit it verbally, because verbalizing it makes it true, but you know in your heart that it won't last much longer, because that's what happens, good things don't last long.
  As you're being told by someone that they still love you and that things are going to be okay. "Things are going to work out and we aren't ending it, we just need to wait for a time when we don't have to push things." Your entire person is shaking, trying to control yourself as you completely and totally one hundred percent lose it and turn into a sniveling, begging mess. Begging them not to end things and begging them to give you another chance to not leave you because even as you're trying to get yourself to shut the fuck up you can feel yourself dying on the inside. Months of being together and you're acting like you're losing your soul mate, like you cannot live without them and you don't know why. They tell you that it's going to be okay and it isn't ending it's just being put on pause. Just for now until you don't have to push things, that they still feel the same and they still love you and their feelings haven't changed and they want to give it another try and if it weren't for the timing we could last for a long time. As you're listening to them, you're trying to take it all in but it isn't working; your chest is getting heavier, you start to get light headed and you beg yourself not to be sick. You beg yourself not to make yourself into an even bigger fool then you already have.
  You feel like your drowning and you want to believe them and everything they're saying, you want to believe that everything is going to be okay because despite only knowing them for such a short time they have become such a huge part of your life and you've fallen head over heals in love with them. Everything about them, their smile, their laugh, the way they can never give you and yes or no answer, how passionate they are about everything (including you) and how much they care about everything and then you realize that you can live without them but a huge part of your soul would be missing and you don't want to have to do that you want to have hope for the future  there are moments when you doubt that and you're sure that nothing is going to happen and no good is going to come from it but then you think of all the conversations you've have, how much fun you have doing nothing together and how amazing he is at making you feel like you're flying.
  Just remember, when you're feeling lost, remember how he makes you feel with a simply glance. How he makes you feel simply by smiling at you. You feel like you're flying and like you've never had a reason to doubt anything. Just remember that he loves you and he wants to be with you and at the moment the universe is testing how strong the two of you are together. Always remember that the two of you can be stressed, pushing things, and knocked down that you can get up and this is just the universes way of telling you, that you've passed the test and you're going to make it. Remember when you're feeling lost that you are going to make it.