Torn Between Two Feelings...

Do you ever have those moments where you know that you really do not want to care but you for some very stupid reason can't help it? You had something at some point a friendship, a relationship and things didn't go as planned and you cannot stand the thought of the person but when you see them, you see how much pain they are in and you want to be happy that they are in pain, because maybe, just maybe they will know a tiny bit of the pain you felt when things didn't work out but as you look at them and see how miserable they are and that things aren't working out for them you do feel something but it isn't the happiness you thought you would have? It's pain, and a small hint of agony for the person because as much as you dislike them you can't help but remember the small attatchment you had for them and you reach out to help them...How do you feel when you see them next? Do you still feel the pain and hate toward that person or do you feel sorrow and some small amount of pity for them? You decide next time, you see them. Can you truely forgive someone, to get past your burning dislike for them or are you still dwelling on the past?